I ain't cho bietch.

So i suppose aim, myspace, blogspot i.e. are very popular now a days so i should problaby update myself. You know a friendship takes 2 not 1, but if you really thought about it what have you done to try and make it better for the both of us. I told you straight up i don't have a problem with you and your little boyfriend. But when it hit me was when he brought his brother all up in kleins face when he ain't even in this shiet. But you know what it'sall good cause he didn't touch klein. So i let that pass go but what i don't get is why are we always having problems such things as this. Honestly, you are right. you haven't done shiet to me to make you apologize but i wasn't looking for your apologies. All i wanted was my "bestfriend" back. Even though you have a boyfriend and all i still wanted to chill and have those outings but is that much too ask. Like forreal think about it. i was stuck in between the both of you guys and i knew that you 'thought' i took kleins' side but you know what i am neutral. you know what a bitch i can be and honestly i didn't do shiet to him. Now if i was the bitch that i was before i'd step up to him and slap him across the face (no offence) but no really. i understood that the secret was him moving and you wanted to spend more quality time with him but try spending some time with us. We're close as hell even thogh you think it's wrong for you to tell me your problems when i'm already stressing on my own. Like a millionth time that i said this "no matter what stress i'm going through i'd always have open ears for you" and you know what it's TRUE i didn't lie about shiet. From til' this day if you wanted to vent to me i'd be here for ya' but noo you thought it wasn't the right thing to do or you wouldn't want me to stress even more? but guess what, sometimes leaving your bestfriend out of something that matters to you the most is just the same thing as keeping a secret from them. I was always stuck in between and you knew that. You think i didn't try to k.i.t. with you when you were always @ the bench with your boy. Nigga when i was there eating lunch at the bench YOU'D WOULDN'T EVEN COME BY AND SAY HI OR TALK TO ME when we were just 3steps away. When i tell everyone to chill at the bench so @least monkey and us can get along some how. Now i know you know it's weird the awkward feeling an stuff but why is there have to be such thing as that when we were close as ever. If we were such bestfriends then theres nothing to be embarassed about or awkward about or nervous about. Theres something diffeent between you and me is that i DID try to stay and keep in touch with you. You, forreal, you just kept doing whats up with your mind. now thats my move everyone knows i tried to make it work cause YOU WE'RE MY BESTFRIEND SINCE 7th grade. You THINK that i am alays giving up and throwing it all away is because i held on so many times, having people tell me why throw it a good friendship like that when you knew her since 7th grade. you guys are practically like sisters! Now a days, where can you find something like this. Now thats why i've been holding on for so long but i bet you'd never noticed or dared to say anything i assume. But it's ok. you think i don't care and you're trynna put me in your position where you'd use to be and how you felt? Honestly i don't give a crap cause i'm a completely different person now and i don't care with such a problem like this. On the real you WERE my bestfiend and i'd take you back anytime but until then i wouldn't come up and say sorry either cause why? what did i do wrong when i honestly tried to work things out. Now'd if you ask people go head' cause I VENT TO THEM ABOUT YOU. Yeaaa, you. you think that i don't are and shiet when i took the time you drive up to campbell and just to see you guys with my nephews what you think thats nothing? Now that's what i called k.i.t. as a true bestfriend. & i know me and klein are the closet people you got so is it worth loosing? you tell me. I'd take you back but i wouldnt be the first one to make the move any more. Spending all that time crying and shiet together you think it don't mean shiet to me? well it does but the pass is the pass and thats the reaosn why it's called the pass let it go because that isn't the person we are today so change.





i ain't trynna make no blogspot argument like the old xanga days. But just let it be.